what’s playing::Apologize – One Republic::
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Is it the December curse on me? For the past 3 years, I get gawd-awful mood swings. And it’s always December. Restlessness eats into me, and rationality goes on vacation. Reason, well, reason never really existed in me.
It’s not that I only want you by me when I have nothing to do. It’s more like, I just want you by me. Period. But I will have to take a leaf from Criminal Minds and start being out, “busy living my life”. This seems easier on my none too clean computer screen.
I feel like I’m wasting away as I watch re-runs after re-runs of CSI episodes. Filling up on a tad too much junk food than is good for me. And losing touch with people around me.
A perfunctory Hi-Bye isn’t good enough for me. I have thin skin. That means I’m not the best person to look to with regards to taking initiative. I try, but I’m not good at it. So here I will stay, stuck on one end of a bride to Everywhere, while the people around me take bounding steps across.
I just feel, alone.
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[Not the same old]
