what’s playing::Somewhere Out There – James Horner::
moodflash::
sick::
I’m only a gopher (a nicer word for intern) but I cannot help it that what my colleagues are going through kinda affects me too. Not that I’m affected directly by the change, more like, I feel sad for the department. I never thought I could work in a place which was real. A place genuine, where the people are straight-up in your face. There’s no need for pretense and masquerades. A place where politics takes a back seat. And such a place, such a place, must be preserved, for the sake of preventing one’s descent into full cynicism. The brothers work, and they talk about their work. And I know full well from what I hear that one must learn to play the game of politics in order to survive and advance, wherever you go. So when I ended up where I am, my faith in workplace relations was restored. But I now know, for certain, that my department is an anomaly. It is atypical of workplace relations in reality. At least, I can count myself lucky that I got to experience this at least once, for I’m not sure I would ever be this lucky when I graduate in a year.
I cannot fit in with the whole PR thing. I just can’t get it going, and I know I have got to learn, eventually. But I sure as well hope that this learning process would only come in later, and that I would never have to use it. Never. But that’s just happy wishing.
Fighting the establishment seems to be something so futile. But I think it is important that we hold on to the need for honesty and sincerity in communicating. Nevertheless, I’m aware that my idea only goes to indicate how naive and sheltered I am.
I can only hope that my colleagues hang in there while they seek greener pastures which deserve them so so much more. Fight evil! 
Meanwhile, I’m feeling so dead tired. It’s not that I haven’t had enough sleep. It’s more like my body needs a break. It feels somewhat broken, and I wish I could be fixed easily. Well. I suppose sleep and a day’s rest can give me just that cure. But… no one likes to be sick.
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[crush]
